Hey there rockstars, I'm your host, Kathy. I am a real-life, confused queer girl though, not a robot. If you haven't guessed from the title, this blog will be primarily about gayness and what it's like to be a brand-new just-out-of-the-closet lesbian.
I happen to be in a common situation. Since I was twelve, I knew I liked girls. They were pretty, and cute, and I knew I was more interested in the ladies than a girl should be. I thought I liked boys too. I resigned myself to just ignoring the part that liked girls, since I come from a pretty conservative town in a conservative state. Then I finally decided to come out of the closet at 19. I was in a serious relationship with a boy. I thought I was bi, and that's what I told people. That guy and I broke up (it's a long story), and I ended up with a new guy. He was great- we talked all the time, and eventually we decided he should come for a visit. Long story short, being with him made me realize I may not be bi- I might just be 100% a dyke.
Of course, now I'm confused. Am I gay? Am I bi? Who the fuck knows? I'm twenty, now, and I want to be more gay. I want to make friends who aren't gay boys and straight girls (I'm pretty femme.) I want to improve my gaydar(it sucks). I want to make lezzie friends, maybe even a girlfriend, and in general just be happy with who I am.
I write this blog because I want to see how I change. Having a blog will make it easier for me to push myself out of my comfort zone. And maybe some other confused little gay will come across this and my own confusion will make them feel better, or inspire them. I don't mean inspire as in "I want to be like Kathy!", I mean, I'll post links to helpful sites as I find them and maybe they'll help you too. Or someone you know.
Or maybe this little experiment will just lurk in the dusty corners of the interwebs. Oh well. I'll post all about internet dating tomorrow!
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